These days I've been thinking a lot... and fearing the future.

I'm scared of what the research data is showing... Scared that I fail to study hard enough for USMLE... Scared of school when it reopens. N it's this feeling of having a head tt's too choked full of information.

But I dont want to give up on my dreams. Not yet... Then again, there's always this nagging feeling inside me tt tells me tt I may regret what I wish for.

A very intelligent girl told me yesterday said tt maybe there are bigger plans 4 me although I was made to cut short my overseas elective... I can see hw tt is true to a certain extent. But I still can't chop down the nearest tree when the forest looks dark and scary.